Okay so more on that first love. Aside from knowing each other and it taking us over three years to act on it it's a lot like me and JRs story. What made it even
possible, how it got there, what the first step was and the first
moments we admitted and acted on our feelings for each other. So I have a
type. Not like I see someone and they're hot and I just want them. No
this goes more the 'you're my other half' path. I can look at someone.
Anyone really and see pretty features but that doesn't change the result
of whether I'm going to make friends with them and like them or not. If
I don't then I don't. If I do then I do. Looks won't affect how I act
with you, how you act will affect how I act with you. There are a few
things people do I can't stand and some people do them without thinking
about it. Those are the things that I look at more than anything. It's
the things you control but do not of your own accord that say the most
about you to me. Well that's what makes people friends to me or not.
Well I was removed from school for a fight I may expand on later and
was home schooled from then on. We move shortly after out of the city and
to the country and started a small ranch. Now to most country and small
ranch may bring to mind the movies where little miss sunshine goes for a
stroll and waves hi to all the neighbors and they wave back as she
passes by on her way into town. Yeah that doesn't happen. There are no
foot paths for walking just a few roads that see to much traffic. A walk
to town would take half the day. There aren't that many people out here
and those that there are, while nice and often friendly in passing,
move out here to get away from running into random people. It was/is
lonely as you can imagine. Well before moving I had been in the Boy
Scouts so I got to keep going to that once a week. It was my only
interaction with people so that would be why I started getting so close.
Well at 14 I started venturing its the next step in scouting and it's
for boys and girls. Tell now it had been a few years since I had gotten
to know a girl. Not since being taken out of school three years ago had I
even really spent time around them and that probably had something to
do with why I treated them like I did the guys. Fast forward three
years. I was at this point getting, to be one of the older scouts, so I
had to start helping teach the new ones thing, tents, packs, badges and
the like. I was good at teaching and helping other people learn since I
had been doing it with my siblings for homeschooling. I even started
helping with non scouting things like reading, math and other schooling.
Well in the crew with, that's the venturing part of scouts, one of the
girls was having trouble with school. Really it was the math things just
weren't clicking for her so "hey think you could help me out with
this". Looking back I think that was a setup like the "hey if you beat
me I'll buy you dinner" I used just to spend more time alone together.
Well I did help her out and she did just fine, thanked me and asked if
she had any more trouble if she could ask again come to think of it
that's the same thing JR and I said. Sure why not I thought I was just
being nice and I was. She was fun and we like a lot of the same things
so we always had something to do to pass the time after she got the work
done. Well this went on for months. Meetings were after school once
every other week for a couple hours so people often brought their
homework and books for the time after all the talking and planing for
camping trips and stuff was over. So once every other week after the
meetings we would end up in our own little corner on the floor laid out
or sitting next to each other going over her books. This went on for
maybe a year of school so heck yeah I thought it was just us being
friendly. After awhile other people join in and it was like a little
study group. One of us might be better at something than the others and
we'd explain it. She said she wasn't really getting as much out of it as
she had been and that she was starting something else I can't recall
what but asked if I could come over and help her get the hang of it.
Again we were all doing it so it made that the norm for me. Well okay we
were friends now and that's something friends do right? Well I got
dropped off and we went into the living room kicked off our shoes and
had a seat on the floor by the couch. It may seem inappropriate now but
she was more in my lap than on the floor. God was I a dunce or just to
nice or what? Well we did the homework I called and my parents came to
pick me back up. They got there, her mother thanked me for coming over
and helping her out. She gave me a hug, something all the people in the
crew did, and I left. After the next crew meeting "hey I'm still having
some trouble could you come over again?". We were sitting there her in
my lay the book in hers and me looking over her shoulder. Still
something I like to do with people, just look over their shoulder and
watch. This time was much as the first but ended a little differently.
We had been over pages talking and explaining things out so we
understood it all. We had been doing this for hours now. We'd read a
page shed turn in my lap we talked then on to the next and I and on it
went. She was the youngest sister and one of her others were always
around. I think they were supposed to be keeping an eye on us. I don't
know I you g nice and clearly blind to the ways of life. Well the sister
that was there got bored so got on the phone and left the room. This is
where I it went way differently than the last time. We finished the
page she turned again we talked she said it made sense then kisses me.
Not a peck on the cheek ether it was a kiss. I mean I liked her it was
really a lot like JR and I started just close friends a lot in common
helping out and never thinking of it like that. I never saw it coming.
No build up no starting slow with a peck on the cheek no asking to try
it out like JR asked her girl just straight to the point. After more
than a year of just friends hugs and comfy cozy just close friends
sitting WTF was that. I didn't really say that but you get the point.
I'm sure it was written all over my face to. "Oh my god. You didn't know I
liked you?" she asks?
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