I just want everything to work out.

So I went ahead and sent JR a voice mail earlier. I explained how sorry I was and that I wasn't really unhappy with her or how things have been or even that it's ended so much as everything that I've been going through and how I acted. I know it wasn't fair to her and I hope she's doing okay. I don't want to leave things this way or at least like we did. I just kinda thought after all we've learned about ourselves. We've learned so much about each other you'd think it would be easier to stay friends. I hope she listens to it and can feel the same as I do at some point. For me and the way I see things it's clear to me that I don't want things to be like they are with the other people in my life. I think if we can still be friends then  I would like that.  It'll be different but what about this hasn't been so far? I know she's gay but that doesn't really matter to me and its not just now after getting to be this close and talking every day. It didn't matter before ether. I knew she had a girlfriend before we started and at that time I just thought of her as gay. I know other people that aren't straight and we've been friends for years now. Before the dating started I was just happy to have made a friend who I could just be close to and talk with like we had been.