So I don't have normal relationships

So about my 'friends'. I don't have what people would call normal relationships with the people I call friends. It's not that I don't have people I call friends it's just that we aren't in the normal sense of the word. When I say friend what comes to mind? Is it someone you can call when you're down to cheer you up? Is it someone you can go hangout with to have a good time? Well I don't have this with people and I haven't in a really long time. Most of my friendships I gained through my time working for the Boy Scouts. They are strong and lasting but not close per se.  The friendships go back and forth from close to distant and back again. We don't talk during the off season except for special occasions like birthdays weddings and things like that. Nothing like what I've been doing. I'm working on that now but it's going to and take a lot of hard work and time. The time we spend together is out at the camp this is also if you fallow her blog where I met JR. Out there we live together for months at a time spending almost all of it together. We live work eat relax see and talk with each other all day every day and no that's not an exaggeration. We become closer than what is normal to outside observers. For any one who has never spent time like this with somebody it's not going to make a lot of sense. You might think, oh like roommates? No, it's so much more than that. You become like family and I mean that in a very real way. I've been doing this for years now as have a few others and those are the ones I've been trying to talk to. We laugh joke talk and often just act goofy but for this time we are close. As close in fact as I have been with JR and yes I've talked to her about this. some of the things we do would fall under overly close. Nothing to the point of being in a relationship but still overly close. I'll talk more about that later though for now good bye and good night